Need to focus, each day is a new day. Moving forward.
It's hard not to think about the past, miss what you once had.
But then, so much has happened... really can't go back.
Work was bit more productive today. I can't wait to make the my own.
Tweak some of the way things are done. to be more efficient and more conscious of paper wastage. So much to learn. Glad to have something to take my mind off things.
Seems like I dont really have to worry about being late. heheh....
wow, perfect job for me. since tardiness was always an issue... even though I try really hard. ok it's just bad in the mornings when i'm like pressing snooze 5 times. hahah
but i'm determine to get up on time now...
let's hope this will last.
Tuesday, 26 June 2007
Saturday, 23 June 2007
Starting All Over Again
Finally, I can pick up some pieces of my broken life and start all over again.
Startng tomorrow, I'll be working at a Construction Market Intelligence Company. Don't ask me what they or I'm doing...coz I'm still not too sure yet. haha.. but it's a global organisation, so hopefully some aspect of my degree will come in handy.
Also going to continue with my Masters. 4 more classes....but going to take me a whole year to complete instead of just one semester since one of the core subjects is not offered til next year.... uuggh. that's a bit annoying. but at least I can concentrate and work hard to hopefully get really good grades. *fingers crossed* I'll manage to find people to work well with in my groups later on.
But personally...i'm still trying to sort that out.
there are good days and then there are bad days.
sometimes it's manageable.. but at others. it's really dark...
How do you forgive betrayal?
How do you rebuild trust?
Believe in something that is totally crushed?
I don't know if I can do it all over again...
To open myself to more hurt and pain
But yet, I'm not strong enough to say no
and have the courage to be alone.
Maybe One day. when it's all over
I;ll be able to look back
and realise i'm stronger and wiser
And all of this was meant to be
to make me into someone better
Startng tomorrow, I'll be working at a Construction Market Intelligence Company. Don't ask me what they or I'm doing...coz I'm still not too sure yet. haha.. but it's a global organisation, so hopefully some aspect of my degree will come in handy.
Also going to continue with my Masters. 4 more classes....but going to take me a whole year to complete instead of just one semester since one of the core subjects is not offered til next year.... uuggh. that's a bit annoying. but at least I can concentrate and work hard to hopefully get really good grades. *fingers crossed* I'll manage to find people to work well with in my groups later on.
But personally...i'm still trying to sort that out.
there are good days and then there are bad days.
sometimes it's manageable.. but at others. it's really dark...
How do you forgive betrayal?
How do you rebuild trust?
Believe in something that is totally crushed?
I don't know if I can do it all over again...
To open myself to more hurt and pain
But yet, I'm not strong enough to say no
and have the courage to be alone.
Maybe One day. when it's all over
I;ll be able to look back
and realise i'm stronger and wiser
And all of this was meant to be
to make me into someone better
Monday, 7 May 2007
city rail staff not so bad afterall
i must have finally hit on some good luck.
went to visit my relatives over the weekend which usually includes a very long train ride, was a bit tired so i took off my glasses to rest my eyes during the journey. when i got off the train, the world seemed all a bit blurry...no wonder i left my glasses on the train. eeeks! i was so worried....was i gonna be blind??? went quickly to the station staff at the ticket booth and told him what happened and requested for assistance. but never thinking he can actually do much about it... but he did! he contacted the station staff at the train's approaching station and told them what carriage i thought i was on and where i think i left my spectacles..and they actually found them and sent them back to me on the next train back. wow.... so utterly unexpected...
since there was a 15 mins gap before the next train would return. i decide to go and drop off my stuff at my relatives before picking up my glasses and as a token of my appreciation i just quickly grabbed two fuji fruits....was that too tacky?? hey. they sell like $5 for 2...maybe i should offer to buy him coffee instead
but anyhow when i returned to the station and offered my tokens of appreciation there was just this big awkwardness....eeeks... was it so bad?? i just thought he went out of his way. beyong his call of duty for me.
(though he claims that this was part of they responsiblity, but how many do carry them out) i really just want to show my appreciation.... hmm maybe i'll give him a shout out on MX newspaper instead.....
went to visit my relatives over the weekend which usually includes a very long train ride, was a bit tired so i took off my glasses to rest my eyes during the journey. when i got off the train, the world seemed all a bit blurry...no wonder i left my glasses on the train. eeeks! i was so worried....was i gonna be blind??? went quickly to the station staff at the ticket booth and told him what happened and requested for assistance. but never thinking he can actually do much about it... but he did! he contacted the station staff at the train's approaching station and told them what carriage i thought i was on and where i think i left my spectacles..and they actually found them and sent them back to me on the next train back. wow.... so utterly unexpected...
since there was a 15 mins gap before the next train would return. i decide to go and drop off my stuff at my relatives before picking up my glasses and as a token of my appreciation i just quickly grabbed two fuji fruits....was that too tacky?? hey. they sell like $5 for 2...maybe i should offer to buy him coffee instead
but anyhow when i returned to the station and offered my tokens of appreciation there was just this big awkwardness....eeeks... was it so bad?? i just thought he went out of his way. beyong his call of duty for me.
(though he claims that this was part of they responsiblity, but how many do carry them out) i really just want to show my appreciation.... hmm maybe i'll give him a shout out on MX newspaper instead.....
Friday, 27 April 2007
Finally a night out
There was this Caribbean ladies night happening last night. So i grabbed my two dancing girlfriends to hit the dance floor. Maaan it musta been waaay too long since I moved my body. I am soooo sore today after dancing for about 4 hours last night.
We went to this German bar at the Rocks for a predrink and it was like going in a time warp. the place was blasting all these 80's and early 90's music...OMG.
With my news front. well it's moving forward I guess. but still waiting. but at least this time they gave me more time. I got a month now. and hopefully will have some answer by the end of May. Just signed up and paid for this English language test thing. ugggh. what an utter waste of time. i'm just hoping i'll still be in the country in July to take it coz they got some stupid no refund rule.
Thursday, 26 April 2007
SOOOO Mortified!!!!
My new flatmate just moving in now and I've already managed to totally embarrassed myself..OMG. She told us she was gonna move at 9:30p.m. and seeing how it was only 9p.m. I decide to have a shower. When I came out, there were noises in the house ...I'm already thinking "Oh crap, they're here early! and I'm just wrapped in a towel! The movers! damn damn damn" So I thought best to just run up to my room and out of sight as fast as possible hoping they're still moving things outside...
But who do I encounter at the top of the steps....the friends helping my new flatmate move...and...they're muslims....There was a girl my age dressed all covered up in the traditional attire.. and then this older guy (probably girl's dad) big white beard and all....and me standing in front of them in just a towel.....Eeeks I must have offended them sooo much.
I just keep saying sorry while I ran to my room. Maaan, what a great start to the new house sharing... eeeeks
But who do I encounter at the top of the steps....the friends helping my new flatmate move...and...they're muslims....There was a girl my age dressed all covered up in the traditional attire.. and then this older guy (probably girl's dad) big white beard and all....and me standing in front of them in just a towel.....Eeeks I must have offended them sooo much.
I just keep saying sorry while I ran to my room. Maaan, what a great start to the new house sharing... eeeeks
Monday, 23 April 2007
Half Nelson
Got free tickets to the screening preview to see "Half Nelson". (click on title to see info from IMDB) figured it would be a good way to distract myself. catch up with my friend LL. and get out of the house.
Still don't get why it was called half nelson after watching it... it was alright. artsy...not a mainstream movie. got quite sad near the end. I could feel tears threatening to spill...but perhaps that's just me in my extra emotional state.
So sad my favourite flatmate SW (we even have same initials!) moved out on Saturday. She's the one I would go and have late night chats with. I'm so glad living together hasn't made us drive each other crazy but brought us even closer as friends.
Was lucky to find a someone to take over the room quickly. actually had quite a few girls came and checked out the room through out last week. but we told them we'll get back to them next wk. and basically every one of them already found a place by the time i called yesterday (or perhaps that's their "polite" way of saying they didn't like the place..., one girl said it was too small, and we figured it would be considering she wants to put in a double bed, a desk and a wardrobe etc into the room) maybe if she was to just fall onto the bed from the door and use her bed as chair for her desk... anyway, the girl who's moving in actually was the 2nd person to inspect the room and didn't give off a "i'm very keen" attitude initially. but hey she came back for a 2nd check out and I got to meet her (since i wasn't there the first time. and honestly. how can you live with someone without meeting them first???)
she seemed pretty nice. and she smsed us after to show her keeness this time. so it was all good.
she's a self proclaimed neat freak. so I just hope our sometimes sloppiness won't get to her... hahah but at least the house would be clean for once!
funny thing was, when HB put up the ad for the room online. our ex ex flatmate called and enquired about it.. hahaha.. as if!!! had enough troubles and dramas the last time , history is NOT gonna repeat itself. I refuse to be stuck in the middle again.
anyway just hoping for some news tomorrow
that's always the case. it's always TOMORROW......
so sick of waiting
Still don't get why it was called half nelson after watching it... it was alright. artsy...not a mainstream movie. got quite sad near the end. I could feel tears threatening to spill...but perhaps that's just me in my extra emotional state.
So sad my favourite flatmate SW (we even have same initials!) moved out on Saturday. She's the one I would go and have late night chats with. I'm so glad living together hasn't made us drive each other crazy but brought us even closer as friends.
Was lucky to find a someone to take over the room quickly. actually had quite a few girls came and checked out the room through out last week. but we told them we'll get back to them next wk. and basically every one of them already found a place by the time i called yesterday (or perhaps that's their "polite" way of saying they didn't like the place..., one girl said it was too small, and we figured it would be considering she wants to put in a double bed, a desk and a wardrobe etc into the room) maybe if she was to just fall onto the bed from the door and use her bed as chair for her desk... anyway, the girl who's moving in actually was the 2nd person to inspect the room and didn't give off a "i'm very keen" attitude initially. but hey she came back for a 2nd check out and I got to meet her (since i wasn't there the first time. and honestly. how can you live with someone without meeting them first???)
she seemed pretty nice. and she smsed us after to show her keeness this time. so it was all good.
she's a self proclaimed neat freak. so I just hope our sometimes sloppiness won't get to her... hahah but at least the house would be clean for once!
funny thing was, when HB put up the ad for the room online. our ex ex flatmate called and enquired about it.. hahaha.. as if!!! had enough troubles and dramas the last time , history is NOT gonna repeat itself. I refuse to be stuck in the middle again.
anyway just hoping for some news tomorrow
that's always the case. it's always TOMORROW......
so sick of waiting
Thursday, 19 April 2007
Another Day.....
Finally heard some news about my situation...though it wasn't good news. but at least I finally hear something. Gives me more to think about what path I should be taking next instead of this aimless wander. Though supposedly to hear more news update tomorrow...
But just seems to go back to square one. more waiting and waiting and nothing happens.
perhaps this whole thing just can't be fixed and I'm meant to restart my life. Change the environment. meet new people. adopt a new lifestyle....but can I?
Gawd never though I would have a quarter life crisis...though it's not quite that, none of it happened due to my age. I'm not thinking about all this due to my age. but I am at life's crossroad and don't know which way to go. After losing everything, should I still continue on this same path? or should I look elsewhere to start afresh?
Thank you all who showed me support and love during this time. I really really appreciate it. Am i acting strong in front of you? it's all "acting" though. in reality, I still don't know how to face it all just yet, was never very good with confronting conflicts. I tend to run away. stick my head in the ground like an ostrich and just hope the problem goes away. Yes I know, not the most effective manner...I know I really should face it. deal with it. but i'm just so scared. scared of changes, scared of imagining what my life (if you can call it that) would be like.
I feel like I'm just wasting time, wasting money, energy and practically everything to continue the way I am right now. It's all this endless cycle. There's no way out. It's all just the same motion over and over again. How can I not be numb to it all. The result's always the same. never change...
And that's the one thing I actually want to change in my life but it remains such a constant. how ironic.
Feels like the last 2 months been just this vicious cycle. Day after day just a repetition. With things deteriorating. going from bad to worse. Bad news one after another and then no news and the endless waiting and waiting...
How do I believe in myself again? That I'm worthy and all this is only a hurdle I will one day eventually be able to get pass. I know I'm suppose to think that way but yet...right now, I just can't see it. I don't even know how to be me anymore...
But just seems to go back to square one. more waiting and waiting and nothing happens.
perhaps this whole thing just can't be fixed and I'm meant to restart my life. Change the environment. meet new people. adopt a new lifestyle....but can I?
Gawd never though I would have a quarter life crisis...though it's not quite that, none of it happened due to my age. I'm not thinking about all this due to my age. but I am at life's crossroad and don't know which way to go. After losing everything, should I still continue on this same path? or should I look elsewhere to start afresh?
Thank you all who showed me support and love during this time. I really really appreciate it. Am i acting strong in front of you? it's all "acting" though. in reality, I still don't know how to face it all just yet, was never very good with confronting conflicts. I tend to run away. stick my head in the ground like an ostrich and just hope the problem goes away. Yes I know, not the most effective manner...I know I really should face it. deal with it. but i'm just so scared. scared of changes, scared of imagining what my life (if you can call it that) would be like.
I feel like I'm just wasting time, wasting money, energy and practically everything to continue the way I am right now. It's all this endless cycle. There's no way out. It's all just the same motion over and over again. How can I not be numb to it all. The result's always the same. never change...
And that's the one thing I actually want to change in my life but it remains such a constant. how ironic.
Feels like the last 2 months been just this vicious cycle. Day after day just a repetition. With things deteriorating. going from bad to worse. Bad news one after another and then no news and the endless waiting and waiting...
How do I believe in myself again? That I'm worthy and all this is only a hurdle I will one day eventually be able to get pass. I know I'm suppose to think that way but yet...right now, I just can't see it. I don't even know how to be me anymore...
Friday, 13 April 2007
So much has happened.......
I don't even know where to begin. Never really thought I was a private person but I hate sharing bad news. I hate others seeing me when I'm down and depressed. But that can't be helped now. I don't know how to get out of this...."mess" i'm in. Been looking down the tunnel hoping to see light at the end. but just seems like endless darkness and i keep on falling and tumbling.
with all the bad news I don't know how to see the "brighter" side anymore.
a dream i've believe in was shattered and along with it my heart and confidence.
I don't even know where to begin picking up the pieces.
Nothing seems right at the moment.
I don't know how to be "me" anymore.
Friends say i need to be strong to get through this. but I dont know where to get the strength from. Inner strength is so non existent at the moment.
with all the bad news I don't know how to see the "brighter" side anymore.
a dream i've believe in was shattered and along with it my heart and confidence.
I don't even know where to begin picking up the pieces.
Nothing seems right at the moment.
I don't know how to be "me" anymore.
Friends say i need to be strong to get through this. but I dont know where to get the strength from. Inner strength is so non existent at the moment.
Sunday, 4 March 2007
my 25th......
man....quarter of century already. sheesh...at times like these you realise you are getting older...and hope with age comes maturity and wisdom. I have yet to confirm if that's happened to me yet. but hopefully I can say that maybe around this time next year.
Went to this Spanish Tapas place in my area for dinner with a few friends. some of them even organised a cake for me...wow, haven't had a bday cake of mine own in ages....Thanks guys! We missed the flamenco dancing because they were on later, but we just had a merry time and there were lots of food to go around. We had a really apt name for Tapas....Spanish Yum Cha. heheh...maybe if they can do a round table next time.....
Afterwards we went to get a few drinks at the Nude Bar down the road, There's all these various nude paintings on the wall. it was a nice cozy bar.And a discussed followed about fetishes....What are they? Do they have to be sexually linked? Can people just have Random fetish?
Gawd i wore the wrong shoes that night, i managed to fall over not once or twice but 3 times. lucky i didn't twist my ankle or anything but it was a bit sore the rest of the night and the next day.
It was a great birthday and Thanks to everyone who celebrated with me in person and those who wanted to be there but couldnt. Thanks for all your bday wishes. I'm really thankful to have such great friends to be able to spend it with!
Went to this Spanish Tapas place in my area for dinner with a few friends. some of them even organised a cake for me...wow, haven't had a bday cake of mine own in ages....Thanks guys! We missed the flamenco dancing because they were on later, but we just had a merry time and there were lots of food to go around. We had a really apt name for Tapas....Spanish Yum Cha. heheh...maybe if they can do a round table next time.....
Afterwards we went to get a few drinks at the Nude Bar down the road, There's all these various nude paintings on the wall. it was a nice cozy bar.And a discussed followed about fetishes....What are they? Do they have to be sexually linked? Can people just have Random fetish?
Gawd i wore the wrong shoes that night, i managed to fall over not once or twice but 3 times. lucky i didn't twist my ankle or anything but it was a bit sore the rest of the night and the next day.
It was a great birthday and Thanks to everyone who celebrated with me in person and those who wanted to be there but couldnt. Thanks for all your bday wishes. I'm really thankful to have such great friends to be able to spend it with!
Sunday, 18 February 2007
Valentine's to New Year
i made a trip down to the capital to see my hunnie for Vday, we didn't go out or anything since House MD was on tv and he didn't want to miss it, but personally i rather watch Heroes...which was on at the same time on the other channel. grrr..
at least he made me italian for dinner. and then i set up candle lights around the spa so we did something romantic that night.
Thai Chili Basil Chicken/Beef/Pork is the easiest dish to make, (which is what i made for dinner for my hunnie the night after).
all u need is:
- your choice of meat, (cut into cubes/small bite size pieces),
- some little red bird eye chilles, (bruised in the motar or just chopped if u're lazy like me),
- a bunch of basil,
- some other veges, i used bok choy, carrots, onion and garlic
- fish sauce
so u brown the meat, remove from pan, then heat oil in pan, add in ur choice of veges, stir for 3-5 mins, add in meat, stir, add in chili and basil, stir, add in fish sauce, stir and turn off heat, add in bit more basil and ta da! Thai Chili Basil ready to be served with rice. it was yummmm
Chinese new year is here!!! woo hoo... gung hai fat choy everyone!!!
May the year of the Pig bring good fortune and prosperity to all!
Went out to waaaay far for family dinner on New year's Eve. was ok. my family... they dont talk much, we're all into our handheld game console... basically...we got one to share between every 2 person, thaT's why i got mine also.. to have entertainment at family gathering....it's rather sad really....so hopefully this week we can get more interactive....my family seems to have accepted my gwailo hunnie. even he made some profit with the lucky money last night.... i'm not opening mine til end of new years coz it's suppose to be bad luck otherwise......
at least he made me italian for dinner. and then i set up candle lights around the spa so we did something romantic that night.
Thai Chili Basil Chicken/Beef/Pork is the easiest dish to make, (which is what i made for dinner for my hunnie the night after).
all u need is:
- your choice of meat, (cut into cubes/small bite size pieces),
- some little red bird eye chilles, (bruised in the motar or just chopped if u're lazy like me),
- a bunch of basil,
- some other veges, i used bok choy, carrots, onion and garlic
- fish sauce
so u brown the meat, remove from pan, then heat oil in pan, add in ur choice of veges, stir for 3-5 mins, add in meat, stir, add in chili and basil, stir, add in fish sauce, stir and turn off heat, add in bit more basil and ta da! Thai Chili Basil ready to be served with rice. it was yummmm
Chinese new year is here!!! woo hoo... gung hai fat choy everyone!!!
May the year of the Pig bring good fortune and prosperity to all!
Went out to waaaay far for family dinner on New year's Eve. was ok. my family... they dont talk much, we're all into our handheld game console... basically...we got one to share between every 2 person, thaT's why i got mine also.. to have entertainment at family gathering....it's rather sad really....so hopefully this week we can get more interactive....my family seems to have accepted my gwailo hunnie. even he made some profit with the lucky money last night.... i'm not opening mine til end of new years coz it's suppose to be bad luck otherwise......
Monday, 12 February 2007
I won!!!
woo hoo..never really won anything in my life.. not with scratchies or lucky draws etc... but then the other day while bored at work, i went to this website to enter into all these competitions.. some were just to win movie tickets. or a free meal. or a cd. and u just need to answer one question to enter into the draw... and i got a call yesterday evening. and i actually won a pretty decent prize... a night at the Sheraton on Park hotel in the city with champagne on arrival and breakfast for 2!! yeah.....wow and it wasn't a scam or anything. no fine prints blah blah. they're gonna send me a voucher for me to redeem my prize in the next 6 months... this should be pretty romantic treat for me and my hunnie... weeee...
Friday, 9 February 2007
Addicted
Eeeks... just got broadband at home ...and think i'm back to being addicted to the net...oops.
spent the whole day surfing and watching Heroes.... woohoo love that show, but should control myself so i can wait and watch it with my hunnie.
Played mah jong for the first time in years... and nothing has changed, i still suck! hahha. think i lost the most in the game, but that's ok. our total bet was $5 and even then we didn't even bothered to count the winnings. it was all just for fun. but then i was so out of it during some games, i would put out a tile and totally declared it to be something else entirely..hehehe... oops. so if the others weren't paying attention i coulda suckered them in...but unfortunately they were paying attention....darn it
Can't wait for Chinese new year... woohoo...amazingly the first person to wish me a happy chinese new year was an irish guy...hmmm well no wonder, he got the dates all wrong.. it's not til next week! hahah. here i was doubting myself if the new years came and i didn't get any heads up about it from my family.
spent the whole day surfing and watching Heroes.... woohoo love that show, but should control myself so i can wait and watch it with my hunnie.
Played mah jong for the first time in years... and nothing has changed, i still suck! hahha. think i lost the most in the game, but that's ok. our total bet was $5 and even then we didn't even bothered to count the winnings. it was all just for fun. but then i was so out of it during some games, i would put out a tile and totally declared it to be something else entirely..hehehe... oops. so if the others weren't paying attention i coulda suckered them in...but unfortunately they were paying attention....darn it
Can't wait for Chinese new year... woohoo...amazingly the first person to wish me a happy chinese new year was an irish guy...hmmm well no wonder, he got the dates all wrong.. it's not til next week! hahah. here i was doubting myself if the new years came and i didn't get any heads up about it from my family.
Thursday, 8 February 2007
B&W
stole a pic from Mkyboo, dinner the other nite with bunch of old uni frens i was like the only other NON singaporean in the group.
Almost Busted!
Went down to the country's capitol to visit my man, since haven't got much to do, and figured it'll be a good chance for me to get some insight into what living with him would be like. should that ever happen in the future... but bwoy, let's make that a very very distant future for now.... He's so...o stubborn, things are only done his way. grrrr... and complains i leave my hair everywhere... i'm sure he sheds just as many, but just coz his own are short and blonde and mine are long and dark so obviously mine are much more visible, and he gets miserable about it...*rolls eyes* yeah well whatever. tuff for him
Since there wasn't much going on there and he doesn't have internet at his place, figured i'll go check out the national museum, since they suppose to have this wicked exhibition on Egyptian stuff... but think the ad i saw on TV must have been ages ago, coz didn't see anything remotely exotic there. end up just checking my email while i'm there.
I opened up the email i got recently from my fren RC, she was showing me these fantastic pictures she took for this other girl the other day. pictures look amazing. problem is i accidentally clicked on the first one and it opened up in a window on it's own. all blown up and all... and the model was N-A-K-E-D.... and i was at the NATIONAL LIBRARY!!! OMG, what if they think i was checking out porn on the public terminal.... eeeeks. how was i to explain myself??? i quickly closed the pop up window and looked around me fugitively.....wheee dont think anyone noticed me...
Finally finished level one in Salsa, woo hoo, so hopefully when i do my spins now, i dont end up in some random's guys lap or nearly knocking out someone's eyes, (these have yet to happen but are amongst my worst fears in Salsa) though whenever i try to do some of those "style" moves... while do the hair whipping or booty popping thing... i just end up looking totally retarded.. and this is not just my humble opinion ( i think i look hot! duh, but from my Salsa partner...grrrr....)
definately need more practice in that area.
Since there wasn't much going on there and he doesn't have internet at his place, figured i'll go check out the national museum, since they suppose to have this wicked exhibition on Egyptian stuff... but think the ad i saw on TV must have been ages ago, coz didn't see anything remotely exotic there. end up just checking my email while i'm there.
I opened up the email i got recently from my fren RC, she was showing me these fantastic pictures she took for this other girl the other day. pictures look amazing. problem is i accidentally clicked on the first one and it opened up in a window on it's own. all blown up and all... and the model was N-A-K-E-D.... and i was at the NATIONAL LIBRARY!!! OMG, what if they think i was checking out porn on the public terminal.... eeeeks. how was i to explain myself??? i quickly closed the pop up window and looked around me fugitively.....wheee dont think anyone noticed me...
Finally finished level one in Salsa, woo hoo, so hopefully when i do my spins now, i dont end up in some random's guys lap or nearly knocking out someone's eyes, (these have yet to happen but are amongst my worst fears in Salsa) though whenever i try to do some of those "style" moves... while do the hair whipping or booty popping thing... i just end up looking totally retarded.. and this is not just my humble opinion ( i think i look hot! duh, but from my Salsa partner...grrrr....)
definately need more practice in that area.
Monday, 5 February 2007
Oops. you caught me!
Had my first meeting at work last Monday night, my boss was away and I think
i handled things pretty alright. Meeting was kinda late. started at 19:30 and finished around 22:00. man i was so tired by the end. Basically i had to set up things and make sure things run smoothly throughout the meeting and also take down minutes.... ahem....typing along as they talk... but bwoy these docs just go on and on about stuff... and the majority of the time i was really clueless about what they're yakking about. thank goodness the meeting was audio recorded so I an listen back to it later on and fix up my minutes. coz basically i was typing someone said they'll do soemthing by...blah blah. and someone else reported something will be ready by sometime.. blah blah blah. i just had to record the jist of things and then fix it up later.. but then when it was time for the doc beside me to talk. and i typed the "above". she CHECKED on me! holy C#$P!!! and then offered to fill in the "blanks" for me... Gawd i swear even though i never blush. my face was pretty red.... hahahahah.. oooops
i handled things pretty alright. Meeting was kinda late. started at 19:30 and finished around 22:00. man i was so tired by the end. Basically i had to set up things and make sure things run smoothly throughout the meeting and also take down minutes.... ahem....typing along as they talk... but bwoy these docs just go on and on about stuff... and the majority of the time i was really clueless about what they're yakking about. thank goodness the meeting was audio recorded so I an listen back to it later on and fix up my minutes. coz basically i was typing someone said they'll do soemthing by...blah blah. and someone else reported something will be ready by sometime.. blah blah blah. i just had to record the jist of things and then fix it up later.. but then when it was time for the doc beside me to talk. and i typed the "above". she CHECKED on me! holy C#$P!!! and then offered to fill in the "blanks" for me... Gawd i swear even though i never blush. my face was pretty red.... hahahahah.. oooops
Wednesday, 31 January 2007
More public transport weirdos......and mishaps
Sigh.... does this never end??
On the way home the other day, after meeting that weirdo in the previous post.....I bumped into him AGAIN at Central. OMG. He said hi to me. so I just said hi back and walked away really quickly and took out my phone and called my good fren RY and said really loudly "HI Honey!"
sheeesh. talk about a curse... coz i would never call it fate....ewwww
Then later that night, on the way home from Blockbuster with my flatmate, she wanted to rent some horror movie, I was so distracted by the new movie poster on the side of the building....I totally walked into the POLE!!! AGAIN!!! Damnit!! This is like the 3 time that's happened to me. waaaaah, once was inside a train station... then other night was at a convenient store, i was distracted by the drinks selection in the fridge and now this.. man PPL NEED TO STOP PUTTING POLES IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SPACE!!! So now i got this bump underneath my ear...waaaah. it was soooo painful, I totally wanted to cry....SK's right, I need to have that healing power like the little cheerleader in the new series Heros.
Then today, walking past another train station, this young boy behind me walked up to me and said hi. so i returned the greeting...(perhaps i haven't learnt my lesson yet about talking to strangers.....but i just dont want to be rude) He was really polite, and asked if he could asked me out on a date.....(wha da???) so i told him i already got a man....dear dear... He then asked for my age... asked him to guess and he thinks i'm like 19-20....Bless you child! for thinking i'm so young! hahahaha...so i figured i'm waaaay older than him and he tolded me he's actually from the country and ppl in syd seems rather cold they don't talk much.... but i wanted to point out to him. people dont talk much to strangers near redfern.....
On the way home the other day, after meeting that weirdo in the previous post.....I bumped into him AGAIN at Central. OMG. He said hi to me. so I just said hi back and walked away really quickly and took out my phone and called my good fren RY and said really loudly "HI Honey!"
sheeesh. talk about a curse... coz i would never call it fate....ewwww
Then later that night, on the way home from Blockbuster with my flatmate, she wanted to rent some horror movie, I was so distracted by the new movie poster on the side of the building....I totally walked into the POLE!!! AGAIN!!! Damnit!! This is like the 3 time that's happened to me. waaaaah, once was inside a train station... then other night was at a convenient store, i was distracted by the drinks selection in the fridge and now this.. man PPL NEED TO STOP PUTTING POLES IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SPACE!!! So now i got this bump underneath my ear...waaaah. it was soooo painful, I totally wanted to cry....SK's right, I need to have that healing power like the little cheerleader in the new series Heros.
Then today, walking past another train station, this young boy behind me walked up to me and said hi. so i returned the greeting...(perhaps i haven't learnt my lesson yet about talking to strangers.....but i just dont want to be rude) He was really polite, and asked if he could asked me out on a date.....(wha da???) so i told him i already got a man....dear dear... He then asked for my age... asked him to guess and he thinks i'm like 19-20....Bless you child! for thinking i'm so young! hahahaha...so i figured i'm waaaay older than him and he tolded me he's actually from the country and ppl in syd seems rather cold they don't talk much.... but i wanted to point out to him. people dont talk much to strangers near redfern.....
Monday, 29 January 2007
TOO Close Encounter
Was running a bit late for work this morning and power walked through the tunnel at central and keep hitting this guy walking beside with my swinging arms. oops. finally made it to the escalators when i realised i just missed my train grrrr..... so i just rode down the escalator slowly to catch my breath, when my guy i kept on hitting before appeared right beside me ...
Stranger " Man, never seen someone walked so fast in the tunnel before."
Me "Yeah I was running late but then still missed my train"
Stranger "I'm XXX"
Me "uh.. ok... nice to meet you" (but thinking FREAK)
XXX" so where you work?" blah blah blah
Once we're on the platform I ran away and went to my side since he's going on the opposite direction, but he found me and tried to talk to me until my next train comes
XXX "so how old are you? you Single? Married?"
Me thinking (gosh PLEASE leave me alone... Where is my F^&#ing train??? aaaargh)
XXX " I must say you got the Hottest Body"
Me thinking (Please get me outta here!)
And FINALLY my train arrives so i turn to his weirdo and tells him bye ethusaistically! (So glad to be getting rid of him, but perhaps he misunderstood my ethusiaism) coz he totally leaned in to kiss me goodbye on the cheek what da!!! I met him all of 2 mins!!! and He put his hand on my bum gawd.... I so wanted to slap him, but wanted to get as far away from him as possible even more and just dashed into my train......
SK thinks I attract all these weirdos ( inclusive of previous post mentioned) due to the way i dress for work. but I can say proudly it's NOT what i'm wearing!!! There's just too many freaks out there who likes to pick up chicks near public transport!
I've been asked out for drinks at other train stations before and someone offered to cook me dinner on a bus going home once....Public Transport is NOT a good pickup venue!!!!
Stranger " Man, never seen someone walked so fast in the tunnel before."
Me "Yeah I was running late but then still missed my train"
Stranger "I'm XXX"
Me "uh.. ok... nice to meet you" (but thinking FREAK)
XXX" so where you work?" blah blah blah
Once we're on the platform I ran away and went to my side since he's going on the opposite direction, but he found me and tried to talk to me until my next train comes
XXX "so how old are you? you Single? Married?"
Me thinking (gosh PLEASE leave me alone... Where is my F^&#ing train??? aaaargh)
XXX " I must say you got the Hottest Body"
Me thinking (Please get me outta here!)
And FINALLY my train arrives so i turn to his weirdo and tells him bye ethusaistically! (So glad to be getting rid of him, but perhaps he misunderstood my ethusiaism) coz he totally leaned in to kiss me goodbye on the cheek what da!!! I met him all of 2 mins!!! and He put his hand on my bum gawd.... I so wanted to slap him, but wanted to get as far away from him as possible even more and just dashed into my train......
SK thinks I attract all these weirdos ( inclusive of previous post mentioned) due to the way i dress for work. but I can say proudly it's NOT what i'm wearing!!! There's just too many freaks out there who likes to pick up chicks near public transport!
I've been asked out for drinks at other train stations before and someone offered to cook me dinner on a bus going home once....Public Transport is NOT a good pickup venue!!!!
Sunday, 28 January 2007
Friendly Waiter
Went to Machiaato in the city for dinner the other night with my fren LL and her sister-in-law, the waiter there was super friendly and attentive all night, i just figured he was after a big tip... but then after we finished our meal and he's been talking to us for a bit, he offered to buy us a round of coffee... that seems a bit unusual....and my friend was like "Sis, he's totally hitting on you!" uh...really? *Shrug* but then it became very obvious even to someone as oblivious as myself when he later gave me this business card of this other cafe he's at, with this cell number on the back on it...hmmmm....the cards in my wallet at the moment....but one thing I gotta mention, the lamb shanks there are "To die for!!!" hmmm... the meat was sooo tender it fell off the bone as soon as you touched it and the sauce complemented so well. I'd definately go back there again, only this time we'll choose a table at least 5m away from the speakers of the live jazz player.
Afterwards, a the bus stop waiting for my bus to go home, some indian guy came up and said hi to me. so i said hi back...then he said "Are you Yuki?" huh??? wha da?? me: no.....
So apparently this guy has an internet blind date set up to meet at the time i was waiting for my bus at the spot where I was, only thing was the girl never sent him a photo of herself, nor described what she was going to wear nor gave him her contact number...she only said "you'll know it's me when you see me." Talk about lame. i'm 99% sure she stood him up (If his story is even true), i didn't get to find out more about this as my bus approached and finally I went home....
Afterwards, a the bus stop waiting for my bus to go home, some indian guy came up and said hi to me. so i said hi back...then he said "Are you Yuki?" huh??? wha da?? me: no.....
So apparently this guy has an internet blind date set up to meet at the time i was waiting for my bus at the spot where I was, only thing was the girl never sent him a photo of herself, nor described what she was going to wear nor gave him her contact number...she only said "you'll know it's me when you see me." Talk about lame. i'm 99% sure she stood him up (If his story is even true), i didn't get to find out more about this as my bus approached and finally I went home....
Tuesday, 23 January 2007
Correction
My bad, just checked on IMDB, Jennifer Hudson was not in last year's American Idol, but the 2004 series. Same year as Fantasia and Latoya London... can you imagine that little Hawiian girl made it further in the comp than her? Guess just like in the movies, audience prefer what's more pleasing to the eye than actual vocal talents.
Speaking of American Idol, what's up with this year's comp??? How can they vote out Paris? That girl was Da Bomb. though her speaking voice leaves much to desire, but I suppose that just adds character and make her more memorable.
I'm a reality talent show junkie...not so much the Survivor, Bachelor, Big Fat Loser or Big Brother Fan (in fact HATE BB...uuuugh) but loved the whole So You Think You can Dance, It takes Two, Idol, (not so much the dancing with the stars or the ewwww Skating with the stars- LAME)...
Speaking of American Idol, what's up with this year's comp??? How can they vote out Paris? That girl was Da Bomb. though her speaking voice leaves much to desire, but I suppose that just adds character and make her more memorable.
I'm a reality talent show junkie...not so much the Survivor, Bachelor, Big Fat Loser or Big Brother Fan (in fact HATE BB...uuuugh) but loved the whole So You Think You can Dance, It takes Two, Idol, (not so much the dancing with the stars or the ewwww Skating with the stars- LAME)...
Dreamgirls
I loooved this movie... can't wait to get the soundtrack and own a copy of the movie.... i can see why it won 3 Golden Globes. Totally shoulda won more. The main draw to it was Jennifer Hudson, she had such an amazing and powerful voice... how did that little blonde twit beat her at idol last year? coz Jennifer's a "real" woman with curves? Her voice even outshone Beyonce's (though that might have been done purposely in the movie...oops did i give away the plot?, but you know it was based on the Supremes and Diana Ross already...)
There's a new movie coming out on Valentine's day that I'm hoping to see with my hunnie. it looks sooo cute.. can't recall the name but it starrs Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore. i adore Drew, and Hugh's always a laugh. I even liked the American Dreams movie....ok ok i admit i like singing and dancing movies...and then there's this other one coming out about a bunch of little kids dancing.. think it was a british film. it was like a mockumentry...it was ballet instead of ballroom like "Mad Hot Ballroom". That's highly recommended as well, if you liked "Spellbound" or "Take the lead" since it was kinda a mixure of both.
so the best movies i've seen since 2006: Little Miss Sunshine, Thank you for Smoking, Dreamgirls!, Casino Royale, Pirates of the Caribbean 2 - Dead Man's chest.
Other very enjoyable movies I've seen: A Night at the Museum, Marie Antonette, Take the Lead, Mad Hot Ballroom (rented on DVD), Hoodwinked, Over the Hedge, Children of Men, Capote, Shortbus
Yeah I really like to watch movies... I remember in my other job interview, they asked me what do i like to do on weekends.. I told them I liked watching movies... but they said "everyone" says that....though I know, not everyone mean it the way I do.. haha.. well at least now i can say I like to Salsa, cook up a store, hang out at the beach (they all sound better than shopping!)
There's a new movie coming out on Valentine's day that I'm hoping to see with my hunnie. it looks sooo cute.. can't recall the name but it starrs Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore. i adore Drew, and Hugh's always a laugh. I even liked the American Dreams movie....ok ok i admit i like singing and dancing movies...and then there's this other one coming out about a bunch of little kids dancing.. think it was a british film. it was like a mockumentry...it was ballet instead of ballroom like "Mad Hot Ballroom". That's highly recommended as well, if you liked "Spellbound" or "Take the lead" since it was kinda a mixure of both.
so the best movies i've seen since 2006: Little Miss Sunshine, Thank you for Smoking, Dreamgirls!, Casino Royale, Pirates of the Caribbean 2 - Dead Man's chest.
Other very enjoyable movies I've seen: A Night at the Museum, Marie Antonette, Take the Lead, Mad Hot Ballroom (rented on DVD), Hoodwinked, Over the Hedge, Children of Men, Capote, Shortbus
Yeah I really like to watch movies... I remember in my other job interview, they asked me what do i like to do on weekends.. I told them I liked watching movies... but they said "everyone" says that....though I know, not everyone mean it the way I do.. haha.. well at least now i can say I like to Salsa, cook up a store, hang out at the beach (they all sound better than shopping!)
Monday, 22 January 2007
Midnite Musings
Woo Hoo *bust out da champagne* my first blog.....
Even though I'm really glad I got my first job....the thing is... it's really REALLY boring. half the time I got Sh$T all to do...and then they "monitor" the internet access at work. recording the date and where you visited online so totally can't surf freely. not like i'm looking up porn or anything illegal but they're so strict at work, not sure if they'd appreciate me checking my hi5 profile and reading up on my friend's blog.
I must admit this is way better than Xanga, coz i'm so technically challenged online. lol.
I was looking forward to changing my blog address to piggiepoo, but just checked awhile ago. think that addy already belong to a 15 yrs old singaporean chickadee. She was rambling on some silly thing like...oh i dont wanna be in band class anymore. and i got my friend to do my powerpoint for me... lawds... did we all talk like that when we were 15?
You ever read back your old diary entries and then have a "OMG...I was like this? What was I thinking" moment.... you look back and think wow...I'm so mature now (rather than ewww I was soooo immature) hahah.
But then you reach the part where you're gushing on and on about your first love... your one true love... your soul mate...and just wonder how can you ever love someone so deeply and yet it didn't work out...can't everyone see you're destined to be together....."the one you can never forget" *sigh* and even though you can see now how the relationship is doomed. you were too different, with regards to your dreams and goals, the way you think, your attitude towards a variety of things. It never would have worked... but yet, you're still thinking "what if....."
Even though I'm really glad I got my first job....the thing is... it's really REALLY boring. half the time I got Sh$T all to do...and then they "monitor" the internet access at work. recording the date and where you visited online so totally can't surf freely. not like i'm looking up porn or anything illegal but they're so strict at work, not sure if they'd appreciate me checking my hi5 profile and reading up on my friend's blog.
I must admit this is way better than Xanga, coz i'm so technically challenged online. lol.
I was looking forward to changing my blog address to piggiepoo, but just checked awhile ago. think that addy already belong to a 15 yrs old singaporean chickadee. She was rambling on some silly thing like...oh i dont wanna be in band class anymore. and i got my friend to do my powerpoint for me... lawds... did we all talk like that when we were 15?
You ever read back your old diary entries and then have a "OMG...I was like this? What was I thinking" moment.... you look back and think wow...I'm so mature now (rather than ewww I was soooo immature) hahah.
But then you reach the part where you're gushing on and on about your first love... your one true love... your soul mate...and just wonder how can you ever love someone so deeply and yet it didn't work out...can't everyone see you're destined to be together....."the one you can never forget" *sigh* and even though you can see now how the relationship is doomed. you were too different, with regards to your dreams and goals, the way you think, your attitude towards a variety of things. It never would have worked... but yet, you're still thinking "what if....."
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